Lost myself

I have started shoving my days.. Will i have a change in life before i cud start shoving hours n minutes.. Clock moves very slowly in my life. Is that bcoz i have started disliking life. Who wil answer my questions? am not able to think further..
i am not able to explain what is running in my mind.. my mind is standing still like the eyes do sometimes when we think deep. am dumbstruck.. donno how to move ahead.. am i scared of people's words thats comes like arrow from a bow? Cud be.. my heart doesnt have enough strength to take up any more harsh words. My stomach wobbles as though i have done a mischievous act. But thats not true. I want to be normal.. i want to b the real me. where am i? have i lost myself?...

Frustrating moments that passed
In the sorrows my mind was lost
People disgusted me on my face
No one came to me as solace